Just now, as I was writing in my journal about my thoughts on certain aspects of spirituality, I realized something that I really wanted to share with you. That being, the need to loose control.
I think we all (or at least I do) unconsciously try to control our lives and thus resist trusting in God. Perhaps we're afraid that if we leave the steering will, we'll loose something or someone who we love and cherish......or maybe we see a goal we want to reach and feel that we don't want to risk perhaps not getting there if God's Will calls us elsewhere.
I'm guilty of this, of being afraid to loose control and trust in God.
Whether it comes to goals, friendships, or whatever else it may be, I've always exhausted myself trying to force life to corporate with my plan for myself. I was afraid to trust, afraid of loosing those I loved, afraid of being called to a vocation I had no desire for. I still find myself falling into this trap of illogical thinking, but now I'm happy to say I can recognize and address the problem when it arises. That's half the battle, right?
You know another thing I've realized? Sometimes, you just have to laugh. For starters, what makes me think I know what's best for me (with my human brain) better then our all-knowing God???? Sometimes, I really do question whether I was ever given brains in the first place 😂. Just the fact alone that I think I control anything in the first place is just a little comical.
Frankly, when I think about it hard enough, I'm honestly grateful I'm not in control of my life (or anyone else's for that matter). That would be one scary world.
Giving up control (or what we think we control) is always hard. However, if we focus on the utter freedom that comes from surrendering all to God's Holy Will, I think we'd all have an easier time of it.
I'll leave this topic hanging like this. A more complete version of this post is lost somewhere in my mind :)
What are your thoughts on loosing control?
Have you ever experienced the fear of giving all to God?
I look forward to hearing your thoughts!