Monday, October 15, 2018

The Radiance of Peace


These past few days, I've been happier then I've been in a while 😊.  Why?  Because God has been guiding me in the most beautiful ways through the different events of life.  I'm very joyful right now!

For a long time, I was afraid of God's Will........afraid He'd ask me to do something I didn't want to do, afraid of stepping out of my comfort zone, afraid I'd loose something (I'm not even sure what).

I went through life, blazing my own trail, and stubbornly refusing to leave everything up to God.  I gripped with all my might the steering wheel of my life, even as I knew that what I held in my hands wasn't actually there. 

I'm amazed at how gently and kindly Our Holy Jesus led me back to the attentive and patient He was as He showed me just how perfect His Holy Will is for me. 

As I knelt before my Blessed Lord in the Holy Tabernacle this weekend, I finally let go.  I finally began to understand just how much I needed to trust in necessary it is for my salvation and search for the permission I didn't need to give to the One Who Knows every thought, every hidden feeling, every truth of mine.  

Life is hard, but it's also radiant if we let God direct our lives.  The smallest hardships, the biggest difficulties, the deepest anguish: all go unnoticed when our eyes are firmly fixed on the Beloved, Bleeding Heart of Jesus.  

There's an unearthly radiance to such a peace. 

Gloria in Excelsis Deo!

Tuesday, October 9, 2018

(please) loose control of your life


Just now, as I was writing in my journal about my thoughts on certain aspects of spirituality, I realized something that I really wanted to share with you.  That being, the need to loose control.

I think we all (or at least I do) unconsciously try to control our lives and thus resist trusting in God.  Perhaps we're afraid that if we leave the steering will, we'll loose something or someone who we love and cherish......or maybe we see a goal we want to reach and feel that we don't want to risk perhaps not getting there if God's Will calls us elsewhere.

I'm guilty of this, of being afraid to loose control and trust in God.

Whether it comes to goals, friendships, or whatever else it may be, I've always exhausted myself trying to force life to corporate with my plan for myself.  I was afraid to trust, afraid of loosing those I loved, afraid of being called to a vocation I had no desire for.  I still find myself falling into this trap of illogical thinking, but now I'm happy to say I can recognize and address the problem when it arises.  That's half the battle, right?

You know another thing I've realized?  Sometimes, you just have to laugh.  For starters, what makes me think I know what's best for me (with my human brain) better then our  all-knowing God????  Sometimes, I really do question whether I was ever given brains in the first place 😂.  Just the fact alone that I think I control anything in the first place is just a little comical. 

Frankly, when I think about it hard enough, I'm honestly grateful I'm not in control of my life (or anyone else's for that matter).  That would be one scary world.

Giving up control (or what we think we control) is always hard.  However, if we focus on the utter freedom that comes from surrendering all to God's Holy Will, I think we'd all have an easier time of it.  

I'll leave this topic hanging like this.  A more complete version of this post is lost somewhere in my mind :)

What are your thoughts on loosing control?

Have you ever experienced the fear of giving all to God?

I look forward to hearing your thoughts!

Monday, October 8, 2018

Summer Photography


A few random shots from around July.  Taken manually with no editing done.

Photography is a very interesting thing to me.  Admittedly, I'm not very good at it (😊), but I still enjoy attempting to isolate the tiniest "beauties" that surround me.  Focusing on these small moment, I find myself awed by the thoughtfulness and love of God.  

He sure knows how to bless us in the most magnificent, stunning ways.