Sunday, June 24, 2018

This Moment In Time #5

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What I'm doing:  replying to comments on my "Keep Me Faithful" post.  You all are the best readers ever.  Your comments always touch my heart and make me think more about whatever topic you bring up.  God bless you!

What I'm listening to:  "Save Your Sorrows For Tomorrow" sung by Pee Wee Hunt and Glen Gray and "I Am Thine" by the Benedictines of Mary.  "Save Your Sorrows For Tomorrow" is my latest favorite non-religious song, and "I Am Thine" is my favorite hymn......and I now listen to it whenever I write a post.  

What I'm thinking about:  Blessings.  Whenever I feel down (which for emotional me is like, every 10 minutes 😉), I always act like a baby........it's like I throw an inner temper tantrum and loose all sense of intelligence.  I think I'm alone in my problems, that God never helps me or hears my prayers, and that everyone else seems to receive so many more graces then I do.  Very childish, let me tell you!  It's at these times I need to remember the truth.


Even if I can't "feel it," God is right there.  I'm never alone......God always hears my prayers (He just answers them in the way I need) and God gives me all the graces I need to turn from sin and to become a saint.   

That's what I need to remember (and anyone who struggles with the same thing).  

You know what?  This morning at church, I was reading the readings for the 5th Sunday after Pentecost (which actually weren't read today due to it being the Nativity of St. John the Baptist......I only realized this a little into Mass 😬).  The collect really hit me:

"O God, Who hast prepared for them that love Thee such good things 
as pass understanding: pour into our hearts such love towards Thee 
that we, loving Thee in all things and above all things, may obtain Thy 
promises which exceed all that we can desire.  Through our Lord."
 (taken from the Roman Catholic Daily Missal)

When I first read that, and the bold part in particular, my heart did a little flip flop.  That is what I desire!  That is what I want!  For many years, I would off-and-on think sadly about how pitiful my love for my King of Love was.  I could see (and can still see) just how short and miserably inconstant my love for my Holy Jesus was.  



This thought really has made me sad.....especially for such an emotional soul as myself.  I wanted so much to love my Holy Jesus to the fullest I possibly could.......to live that love, to always have constant proof of the fact, and to be able to always feel it emotionally......never to falter.

I'm just beginning to understand that to love my Holy Jesus, I must LEARN about Him........I've been told for years that you can't love someone unless you know about them.  I've had that point drilled into my head for years, yet I never fully understood or applied it.  Now, I think I'm just beginning to.



Besides that need to learn about my beloved King of Love, I must PRAY.  I must pray every day to my Holy Jesus to "pour into my heart such love towards Him that I, loving Him in all things and above all things, may obtain His promises which exceed all that I can desire."  

Just the thought of Jesus' promises......them "exceeding all that I can desire."  Yes, indeed.  I am so blessed I feel my heart should simply burst.  


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You know one of my greatest, most painful, desires?  That all of the beloved souls that I know who have fallen away from Jesus' Bride our Holy Mother Church would be given the grace to know the truth.......and that they would fly back to the ladder to Heaven that we've been given.  How powerless I feel.

Yet, even this desire of mine is a blessing......for I am shown just how little I am and how great my King of Love is!  I trust Him, my Holy Jesus, to guide all souls to His Most Sacred Heart.    



Oh Wondrous Heart of Love!  Oh Magnificent Holy Trinity, Three in One!  May this whole world know of Thy infinite love for each soul.  

I pray that each one of you has a wonderful, blessed Sunday and new week!  Never feel alone (I am praying for you) and never stop praying to God to be blessed to love Him more!

May God bless and keep you forever. 

Gloria in excelsis Deo!

Friday, June 22, 2018

Keep Me Faithful

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Life is a blessed thing.  Why?  Because I have been given a chance to carry my cross with Jesus and the chance to be with Him forever in Heaven.  

I'm never alone as I slowly attempt to take small, painful steps towards Heaven's shores.  My cross is heavy, but I'm not alone.  My Holy Jesus gave me His Own mother to help me.  She wraps her mantle around me and encourages me to keep walking, even when the path is rough.  The suffering is sometimes great, but I'm not alone.  Jesus is there in the Holy Tabernacle......when I receive Him, He's there in the tabernacle of my heart.   
 
What breaks my heart are all the times when I've dropped my cross, left my Mother of Perpetual Help, and looked away from the Loving Gaze of Jesus........all the times I caused my Holy God even more suffering.  
 
Yet He's always there, reaching out His Hand all the way down to were I am, always ready to take me back to the path to Heaven......always there with Infinite Love for me, regardless of how small, bruised, and weak I am.  Regardless of all the mistakes I make and the scars that cover my soul.  He loves me regardless and is always there asking me to repent and follow Him.
 
 
My cross is beautiful and a cause for great joy.  How could I complain, cry, or even leave when it's weight seems more than I can bare?  This suffering is what brings me closer to the foot of the Cross that bears Love Itself, the King of Heaven, Jesus.....Who loves me enough to give up His life.


He's there, beckoning me to follow Him. 

May I bear my cross ever faithfully, may I never look away from the Loving Gaze of Jesus, and may I be transformed into the woman my Father in Heaven wants me to be. 

Oh Mother of Perpetual Help, pray for me and the whole world and lead us all to your Beloved Son.

"I am thine oh Virgin Mother...keep me faithful unto death."
 ~I Am Thine, by the Benedictines of Mary

Wednesday, June 20, 2018

Beautiful Thorns

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We all have things that get us down, make us grumpy, or just upset us.  It's just how life is.....thorns among the roses!  The question shouldn't be "how can we avoid the thorns," but instead, "how can we embrace them?"

I obviously can't tell you one (or multiple) ways that will magically make it so you no longer struggle with troubles......however, I'm realizing that there's one thing I can do in my life to help me deal with the rough parts, and that is to just think things through.
 
For instance, say there's a situation in your life that just makes you grumpy and you're faced with this situation all the time.  
 
 
When this happens, just take a step back and concentrate on calmly accepting this beautiful cross.  I've found that when you look at a hard situation with that perspective, you no-longer see it as a thorn that gives you pain, but instead, a thorn that brings you closer to our Holy Father in Heaven.  How can we not see that as a cause for great joy?  

You know, God is such a kind Father!  He only ever acts out of infinite love towards all of us.....loving us so much, that He would even make us go through hardships because He knows it is what we need in our lives.  Imagine how hard it must be for God to watch us suffer, even in the slightest ways.  Yet, He loves us so much He gives us what we need regardless.  

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 Next time you hit a thorn in your path, remember that love.  Jesus is there, holding you close against His Most Sacred Heart........He would do anything to have you with Him in Heaven, and that is why He placed that thorn in your path.  Because He loves you.
 
 

Friday, June 15, 2018

A Rut = A Lesson

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Hiking at one of my favorite spots.  It's a wonderful thing.....just standing in the middle of a small creek.  And on a random note, water-proof shoes always make me feel triumphant, for some reason.  
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Life is such an adventure!  I'm sorry I haven't been posting as often........life has been rather interesting.  I can also say I've been learning a few important life lessons :)  Seeing as today I'm battling a sudden cold and quite a bit of muscle pain from a workout yesterday, I figured that this would be the perfect time to merely write out my thoughts on everything.   

First of all, I was in a play (a version of Cinderella written by our director the Catholic Author!).  See pictures here.  I had a blast being one of the evil stepsisters.  It was also a little bittersweet, though, as I decided it would be my last time on the stage.  What a grand way to end, playing my favorite character of all time :)

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About a week before the play, I left my job of over a year to look for new experience in this awesome, big world.  After a unpleasant experience at a factory, I settled down......just not in the right place.  Ya'll, I'm just getting myself out of a severe 4 week rut at home.  It's never fun admitting that you've been lazy and haven't really accomplished anything, but I'm being brave :)

To think that nature is not even the tiniest of the tiniest reflection of Heaven is a thought that blows me away.  (copyright Gloria In Excelsis Deo)

These past 4 weeks have been the most unproductive 4 weeks of my adult life.  Can't say I'm proud of that either ;)  However, to fix a problem you have to admit there's one in the first place.  Just today, I got up and went to early Mass, then to the local bakery to visit with friends, and then went to 4 or 5 businesses to get applications.  I was even blessed to get a mini spur-of-the-moment interview at one place.  Woohoo!  I thoroughly enjoyed myself and now have a handful of good prospects!

Going from one place to the next and talking with everybody.......it really gave me a sense of purpose, belonging, and adventure that I never knew I craved.  I'm a social person.....of course it wouldn't make me happy to hole myself up in my basement room and waste my time doing meaningless things and surfing the internet (yes, I'm ashamed to say that was me).  It's hard to be so honest about something you've done wrong, but....I guess I just want to be open and......real 😉.   

Beautiful day for a hike!  (copyright Gloria In Excelsis Deo)

I guess the lesson I've learned is this: stay busy.  I don't care how you do it (as long as it's not immoral), just stay busy.  Always have something to do, and even if you have no motivation to do whatever it is you're doing, force yourself to do it anyway.  Don't forget, though, to have fun!

 Our dog Marley  (copyright Gloria In Excelsis Deo)

Life is so much more fun when you're looking it in the face instead of hiding from it. 

Anyways, I hope I've managed to take away at least some of the curiosity about my absence.  I have a feeling I'll be more present here in the future.  What I would love to do is to have a posting schedule, but that doesn't work for me right now.  However, keep a lookout for more posts!  I've learned that the older you get the more stories and lessons you have to share. 

May God bless you all!  Have a wonderful (I know, I really do need to get a new word) Friday!

Sincerely yours,

Emma

Saturday, June 2, 2018

This Moment In Time #4

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What I'm Looking At:  Out our sun-room windows.......the sky is dark and overcast and the rain is just fading from a heavy down-poor to a light drizzle.  This is my favorite weather.......give me an overcast rainy-day anytime!  I love the sound of the rain drops on the roof and windows, the smell of the water, and the calm atmosphere it brings.  

What I'm Listening To:  They Don't Know About Us by One Direction.  This Nightcore version is one of my current favorite songs.

What I'm Thinking About:  How wonderful life is.......specifically seeing this even in the hard and difficult times.  Finding peace in life's pain.......seeing the blue-sky through the clouds.  Right now, I'm at a time were there's immense joy and happiness, but also hard struggles.......I'm making mistakes as well as rejoicing over victories.  And you know what?  God is right here beside me, guiding me.

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How can I explain just how wonderful life can be?  Even the most bittersweet moments can be turned into times of awesome joy!  It's all in how we respond to events, bitter or joyful.  Everything can be offered up to our wonderful Jesus!  

Even in the saddest of moments, how can our tears not stop when we think of just how much our God loves us?  How can we not be joyful when we see all of the gifts He has given us?  

Everything is a gift.  EVERYTHING. 


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The specific talents you have, the family God gave you, the friends who have come and gone in your life, the hardships you meet in everyday life, the little joys that the most simple things give you that make huge differences in your life........everything.

Gloria In Excelsis Deo!