What I'm doing: replying to comments on my "Keep Me Faithful" post. You all are the best readers ever. Your comments always touch my heart and make me think more about whatever topic you bring up. God bless you!
What I'm listening to: "Save Your Sorrows For Tomorrow" sung by Pee Wee Hunt and Glen Gray and "I Am Thine" by the Benedictines of Mary. "Save Your Sorrows For Tomorrow" is my latest favorite non-religious song, and "I Am Thine" is my favorite hymn......and I now listen to it whenever I write a post.
What I'm thinking about: Blessings. Whenever I feel down (which for emotional me is like, every 10 minutes 😉), I always act like a baby........it's like I throw an inner temper tantrum and loose all sense of intelligence. I think I'm alone in my problems, that God never helps me or hears my prayers, and that everyone else seems to receive so many more graces then I do. Very childish, let me tell you! It's at these times I need to remember the truth.
Even if I can't "feel it," God is right there. I'm never alone......God always hears my prayers (He just answers them in the way I need) and God gives me all the graces I need to turn from sin and to become a saint.
That's what I need to remember (and anyone who struggles with the same thing).
You know what? This morning at church, I was reading the readings for the 5th Sunday after Pentecost (which actually weren't read today due to it being the Nativity of St. John the Baptist......I only realized this a little into Mass 😬). The collect really hit me:
"O God, Who hast prepared for them that love Thee such good things
as pass understanding: pour into our hearts such love towards Thee
that we, loving Thee in all things and above all things, may obtain Thy
promises which exceed all that we can desire. Through our Lord."
(taken from the Roman Catholic Daily Missal)
When I first read that, and the bold part in particular, my heart did a little flip flop. That is what I desire! That is what I want! For many years, I would off-and-on think sadly about how pitiful my love for my King of Love was. I could see (and can still see) just how short and miserably inconstant my love for my Holy Jesus was.
This thought really has made me sad.....especially for such an emotional soul as myself. I wanted so much to love my Holy Jesus to the fullest I possibly could.......to live that love, to always have constant proof of the fact, and to be able to always feel it emotionally......never to falter.
I'm just beginning to understand that to love my Holy Jesus, I must LEARN about Him........I've been told for years that you can't love someone unless you know about them. I've had that point drilled into my head for years, yet I never fully understood or applied it. Now, I think I'm just beginning to.
Besides that need to learn about my beloved King of Love, I must PRAY. I must pray every day to my Holy Jesus to "pour into my heart such love towards Him that I, loving Him in all things and above all things, may obtain His promises which exceed all that I can desire."
Just the thought of Jesus' promises......them "exceeding all that I can desire." Yes, indeed. I am so blessed I feel my heart should simply burst.
copyright Gloria In Excelsis Deo
You know one of my greatest, most painful, desires? That all of the beloved souls that I know who have fallen away from Jesus' Bride our Holy Mother Church would be given the grace to know the truth.......and that they would fly back to the ladder to Heaven that we've been given. How powerless I feel.
Yet, even this desire of mine is a blessing......for I am shown just how little I am and how great my King of Love is! I trust Him, my Holy Jesus, to guide all souls to His Most Sacred Heart.
Oh Wondrous Heart of Love! Oh Magnificent Holy Trinity, Three in One! May this whole world know of Thy infinite love for each soul.
I pray that each one of you has a wonderful, blessed Sunday and new week! Never feel alone (I am praying for you) and never stop praying to God to be blessed to love Him more!
May God bless and keep you forever.
Gloria in excelsis Deo!
Gloria in excelsis Deo!