Saturday, April 21, 2018

tranquility

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No words can capture this moment.

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Peaceful?

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 Calm?

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Still.  That is how I would begin to describe it.

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There is such beauty in stillness......when your mind reaches a momentary resting place.

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.....just a moment when troubles fade and pain seems to vanish.

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Stillness.  

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Sometimes words don't help......sometimes it's just the stillness of a moment that heals a wound. 

Sunday, April 15, 2018

Embracing Hardships

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Yesterday, I was emailing with a good friend of mine.  For some reason I got to talking about hardships, suffering, and pain, and how I'm just learning how to accept and embrace all of these things.  I thought it would make a wonderful blog post.

I've always had a hard time embracing pain or anything like it.....I have a low-pain tolerance.  When it comes to things I don't want to do....well, I just get wrapped up in the mental pain of it all and basically shut down.  Or used to......because I'm choosing to be different.



Take work, for instance.  It's something I've historically complained about, dreaded, and fought against ever since I started over a year ago.  I guess you would say I'm not one of those "go-get-er" people.  All I wanted was to retreat back into my hole, never leaving what I knew and what was comfortable.  New things were mentally painful for me.......why do it then?  I was a mess.

I always tell me sisters that they'll be so relieved whenever I get married because then they'll finally be rid of me and all of my depressing statistics.  I leave in the morning for work counting the hours until I can come home.  I come home from work and count the hours I've been gone and how many I have left until I go to work again.  I know......I'm prone to being very annoying. 

As I said before, I was a mess!  But now, I'm choosing to be different.  Part of fixing a problem is recognizing that there is one in the first place. 

How am I going to fix this problem?

By embracing hardships.  I don't know when I first started resisting this immature behavior of mine.  It's been long enough were I can finally look back a couple of weeks and see a difference.  And you know what?  Now that I'm in the process of tearing apart my fear of new people, doing things that are hard, and being away from what I love, I'm finding an astonishing part about myself that I didn't know before.  

I actually like going places and seeing people.  I don't like being by myself and it's not were I draw my energy from.  I get my energy from being around people I like.  I'm actually finding I love embracing pain and hardship, in some strange way.  It's a challenge......a challenge to be a better person.  It's a challenge I'm taking up with all of my heart!   

From my point of view, nearly everything looked like a hardship, in some shape or form.  That's why this lesson that I'm in the process of learning (embracing hardships and being a better person because of it) is so ground-breaking for me.  It literally affects me on nearly every level.  

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I love big bodies of water.....this was a memorable moment I'll never forget.

I know who I want to be.  A saint and an honorable, compassionate, courageous woman.  I want to break down any fear or anxiety and know that yes!  I am capable!  I want to attain that mental toughness and to cast off my hyper-sensitivities.  To be strong: mentally, physically, and emotionally.  To never give up or be shaken from the end goal, Heaven.
  
I'm a long ways off from completely being free from fear of pain or hardship and/or avoiding it.  Who knows if I'll ever be.  However, I know that if I keep working to be better and tearing down all of my faults, Our Holy Jesus will pick up the pieces, make something beautiful, and give me the courage and the grace to keep fighting for what is good and true.

How am I embracing hardships?  Going to work with a ready step, recognizing my faults and pushing myself to tear them down.  Fighting against sin, forcing myself to step out of my comfort zone and learning to be work through uncomfortable things.  Learning to have that fighting mentality and being stricter with myself.

With Our Holy God's grace, I can overcome!  Courage is my battle cry.



I've been thinking a lot about how I truly am a soldier in the army of Our Holy God through the sacrament of confirmation.  If you are something, proper conduct is called for.  Thus, I'm beginning a movement in my life, attempting to truly make myself into a soldier for God, not just in name only........to see sin as the battle that it is.  To be courageous, brave, and valiant in the fight.  To firmly hold true to Mother Church and her teachings and to keep Heaven has the end goal, always to strive for holiness.  Will you join me?  



Choose to be different!  Overcome faults!  Never stop the fight!  

Have a wonderful and safe Sunday!

In the Most Sacred Heart of Jesus and under the mantle of our Blessed Mother Mary,

Emma  

Tuesday, April 10, 2018

I'm Back (on bloglovin)

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I'll give it one more try.  See you there!

God bless,

Emma 

Monday, April 9, 2018

It's A Wonderful Life

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The soft evening sunlight.  

Mom wrapping up the last of supper preparation.

A wonderful cup of tea with honey from our neighbors. 

My two youngest siblings talking downstairs, playing in an imaginary world.

The hum of the microwave.

The clutter sitting around (a backpack, car keys, newspapers, lists, games, ect.).

The sound of the keys as I type.

The brown fields with no trace of snow left.

 The beep of the chicken alarm.

Life is beautiful.  Take each moment and be thankful....there's so many things to smile about!

Gloria In Excelsis Deo!

Saturday, April 7, 2018

This Moment In Time # 3

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It's been a while since I've done a "this moment in time" post.  Finally, here's another one.

What I'm listening to:  MAYDAY by The Fat Rat and previously a random Billy Joel song.  

What I'm doing:  Cleaning the kitchen (my weekend portion of the house to clean).....or trying to.  My youngest brother hasn't finished picking up breakfast *ahem* and I'm trying to work around him (I was about to fill the oil jars, to be exact).

 This is the only picture I have that remotely fits what I'm talking about (it's a couple years old).  Copyright Gloria In Excelsis Deo. 

What I'm looking at:  Our house is settled in a section of rolling prairie, and at the moment, the sky is a light blue with puffy clouds every now-and-then.  The sun is shining (not my favorite), and the birds are flying in to feast on birdseed.  The prairie grass is still brown (my favorite) and here-and-there there's a patch of snow.

 The view outback from summer last year.  Copyright Gloria In Excelsis Deo.

What I'm thinking about:  Let's see.....what was I thinking about?  Oh yes!  Contentment at home and always striving to better ones self.  I'm quite happy because I, like any camping nerd when they get a new tent, decided I couldn't wait for spring to come and thus camped out in the downstairs living room......in my new tent.  And yes, my siblings were like, "Um.......the point??"  While I'm considering returning it (claustrophobia......it's a one person tent which means it's the perfect size for a 5 year old....but I won't get into that here.  I'm hoping to post a review on it on my other blog Mud, Laundry, and Sunshine soon), I still had fun.  

Another thing I've been thinking about (and have been trying to formulate a post about): It's easy to read blogs and think how much happier other bloggers are then you.  They always post about happy things and their life seems so perfect and wonderful.  I don't want that to be the case here.  I want to be transparent.......sharing not just the sunshine and unicorn bits of my life but also the hard, difficult struggles.     

 Our dog Marley.  Copyright Gloria In Excelsis Deo.

I can tell you all right now, my life is so far from being all sunshine, it almost makes me laugh.  In fact, I have no idea what a "perfect" life is.  I have the same bumps and hiccups in life that everyone else has.  

And really, a perfect life would be boring.  A life that never challenged you or made you grow?  Utterly bla.  Embrace the challenges and God will take you to amazing places.  Hold close to God and Mother Church and you will never go wrong.  Through everything......fear, anxiety, heart-ache, tears, embarrassment.......just keep looking up towards the Holy, Magnificent Throne of God.  Nothing matters but Our Holy God.


Now I'd better go.  My brother is almost finished washing the dishes, my sister Elizabeth just came up to start her jobs, my sister Claire is looking through the pictures on my camera, and the oil jars really do need filling.  I hope you all have a wonderful, joyful Saturday! 

My sister Elizabeth.  Copyright Gloria In Excelsis Deo.

Work hard, be a saint!

I'm offering up a prayer for you all.  God bless,

Emma