Wednesday, January 10, 2018

Thoughts on a Wednesday


There are so many different things I could write about right now.  Words that could describe my life right now?  Wondering, overwhelmed, and happy.

Wondering.  Because I'm trying to figure out what I should be doing right now.  My current job has me burnt out and I'm ready to grow my skills and knowledge about different things.  I know that I love to take-care of others, I love the outdoors, and I love things that aren't mundane.  Things I'm considering?  Nanny, milker (at a local dairy farm), or college student.

Overwhelmed.  Because for the longest time, I did not want to face reality.  I didn't want to face the fact that I have to leave my comfort zone for the working world.  I didn't want to face the fact that I'm growing up and therefore have more responsibility.  I didn't want to face the fact that I have to grow and change.....I can't stay a girl forever.  I'm a woman now.  I've spent this last year trying to move forwards while still standing in the same place I've always stood.  I didn't want to let go and grow.  

Happy.  Because I finally realize that growing up is a good thing.  That stepping out of my comfort zone is a wonderful adventure (even if it's a little embarrassing).  Happy because after a year of depriving myself of growing my mind, I finally crave something new.  Happy because I can have fun in this crazy life that previously I was so afraid of and didn't allow myself to accept.  

Time for this radical introvert to hit the open road.  

St. Therese, pray for us!

Are any of you trying to figure out a career path?

What ways do you wish to grow in this new year?

In the Most Sacred Heart of Jesus,



  1. I can definitely understand how you feel, Emma!

    Living outside of my home for a while helped me out of that "rut" that you're talking about. I can feel myself sliding back into my pre-college habits now that I've been home for a bit.

    Now that I've recovered from my grad school debacle, I'm ready to go take a job. Just a question of finding it...there are not many ag jobs out where I am that I can take. And I don't want to move again (I've been moving around way too much these past 5 years...)

    God bless! He'll guide you!!


    1. Thanks for commenting, Catherine!

      "A rut" is sure a good way to describe it :) I can definitely see, though, how it's probable that one can get oneself out of it before too long.

      God bless, and I hope you'll find a good job soon!


  2. Not knowing what the upcoming days and months will look like with work and school is tough. Even though I'm not necessarily trying to figure out a career right now, I can relate a little. We've just gotta take one day and one opportunity (one open door!) at a time, I guess. :)

    One of the ways I want to grow in this year is reacting better to failure—to keep "getting back up" even when my perfectionism is crushed and I'm inclined to fall into discouragement at any evidence of my weaknesses—if that makes any sense.

    "Let go and grow" sounds like a great motto for 2018!! :)

    1. Hi Elisabeth and thanks for commenting!

      That's something I need work on, as well. I should remember that (getting back up) more often. That and turning sadness/anxiety over sin into joy and energy to overcome it in the future. I love to think about how every day is a new day. That's so refreshing for me!

      Thanks again for commenting! God bless you and your family!