Showing posts from December, 2017

A Girl Who's Me


All my life, I've copied people.
I see someone who I want to be like, characters in books, in movies, in real life, I imitate's just what I've always done.  
What a hard moment that was, at least 4 or 5 years ago, when I realized that I didn't know who I was.  I spent so much time trying to be like people, I felt at that moment that I had forgotten who I actually am.
I remember being a little girl, riding in the back of the mini-van.  Mom had just dropped a few of the older kids off at a friend's house and we were presumably driving home.  I can still picture exactly what I was looking at outside the window.  
It was evening, the sky was already growing dark.  It must have just rained as the pavement was shiny under the bright city lights.  We were just getting on the interstate on a curved entering ramp when I thought a strange thought.  
Why am I who I am?
I was either four or five years old.  These thoughts made me feel all empty inside.....…

Thoughts On // Christmas Day 2017

The smell of lavender, the distant sound of voices, the quiet sputtering of the essential oil diffuser, my copy of Divine Intimacy laying in wait for tomorrow........
This present moment is beautiful.

Christmas day is almost over, with all its extra joy and fun.  Sure, today didn't pass without a few moments of unpleasant arguing, but that has gone, and all is still.
All of my siblings were able to come between yesterday and today, as well as both Grandma's, a friend, and my sister's boyfriend.  It was loud, chaotic at times all of the time, and the conversations was very.....widespread (did you know that beans are considered more of a carbohydrate then a fat?  I found that to be very interesting).  All in all a good time!
Midnight Mass last night (this morning, technically) was beautiful.  The music turned out well....especially O Magnum Mysterium which just happens to be my favorite song to sing.  I am so blessed to sing in our Church's choirs!  
I can't …

It's Here // Fourth Sunday of Advent


You would think that I would have so many thoughts in my mind on this last Sunday of Advent.  Surprisingly, that's not the case as my thoughts are few and uncomplicated.
I'm waiting for the coming of Jesus with hope.  Hope that He will come and better my soul.....hope that He will come to all those I know who sneer or do not care for His Holy Church and give them the grace of understanding......hope that He will come to the Tabernacle of my soul again and make it a holy resting place even more beautiful then before.     
How I love the Propers for today!  
This day you shall know that the Lord will come, and save us: and in the morning you shall see His glory......the earth is the Lord's and the fullness  therof: the world and all they that dwell therein.  Glory be to the Father...... (Introit for December 24th)
This day you shall know that the Lord will come.  This day!  This year, my mind has wandered more towards the thought of Jesus's second coming instead of …

Christmas Prep (in pictures) // Random things

You may have noticed a little change on the top left of Gloria In Excelsis Deo.  Yes, Emma is my real name.....a name that I love and am so grateful for.  A name has so much meaning and I have decided to use it here so that it feels more like "home."  
Also, in honor getting over 1,000 page views I've decided to do an Ask Me Anything post to be put out within the next few weeks (thanks to Catherine Hawthorn for the idea!).  If you have any questions for me, please leave them in the comment box and I will answer them in the post.  Truly: ask me anything!  I know I have only a few readers (mainly friends and family) but I still think it would be great fun!
Alright!  Onto some Christmas pictures.  I'm an on-and-off amateur photographer and I've decided to post a few pictures every-now-and-then.  

photo courtesy of sister #5 Claire

photo courtesy of sister #4 Elizabeth
photo courtesy of sister #4 Elizabeth

I'm trying to give up sugar for health re…

It's Here // Gaudete Sunday!


Gaudete Sunday.  Even though I love this day quite a lot, I always feel rather, well, awkward (that's the closest word).  Why?  Because I'm not that joyful, especially this year. 
Obsessive, scrupulous, anxious......I've got over-loads of them all.  Little painfully introverted, pessimistic me finds it very hard to be joyful for long periods of time.  The glass is always half-empty.   

Today, our priest reminded us that, while we struggle for holiness and prepare for the coming of Jesus, our souls should be joyful.  Even if we are anxious (*ahem* Teresia), we should always keep in mind that where-ever we are, Jesus will find and help us.  
This Gaudete Sunday, I'm reminded just how necessary it is to forget myself and simply gaze at Jesus.  For all anxious, scrupulous souls out there, just remember that, especially on this day.  
True joy is found in Christ.  The closer we are to Him, the more joyful we become.  It's beautiful.  Now, if only I was there 😉…

A Thought

picture something like this......
The kitchen is a mess, with a smattering of dirty dishes on pretty much every counter.  The little sitting area directly off of the kitchen isn't any better with towels (on the floor...?) needing to be folded, some garland waiting to be tested, and a copy of Frightful's Mountain (missing the cover and the first few pages, of course) laying on top of the largest mound of towels.  The chairs around the table are sitting every which-way, not pushed in after their earlier use and the buffet is littered with games, to-do lists, bags, and other random things.  The only thing that appears peaceful is the nativity sitting right above the kitchen sink.        As I survey the mess, I smile.   This is the life I choose (and yes, that includes cleaning).
In the Most Sacred Heart of Jesus,

Nineveh 90


One of our priests for our diocese started Nineveh 90 last year (or maybe two years ago....I can't recall...).  Basically, it's were we all do 90 days of prayer and penance to end abortion.  If you sign up, you get daily emails with reflections and readings.  
Last year I read (or tried to read) the emails every day, attempted to give up sweets, and that was about it.  In other words, I failed on many fronts.  This year, though, I'm determined to be different!  This year I'm going to take this very seriously.  The older I get, the more my heart aches for all of the little children who are killed in their mother's womb.  It's the least I can do to beg God to save their lives and to end abortion forever.  

Please consider joining me and thousands of Catholics as we storm Heaven!  Here is the "flyer" email that I just received today:
Nineveh 90 - 90 Days of Prayer & Penance to End Abortion!!

Silence // Rambling on My Vocation


I love winter for many reasons.  The pure whiteness of the world, the snow-covered hills that surround us, the feeling of peaceful isolation (we're blessed to live in the "boon-docks" as we call it around here), but most of all, the utter stillness and complete silence.  
No sound carries far as it gets quickly muffled by the snow.  The sounds you are able to here are that of the wildlife (mainly crows), the wind, and the trees when they're covered in ice.  
In my mind, this is one of God's great gifts to the world and one that I treasure.
In the spring, summer, and fall months, the world is a busy place.  Not only the multiple activities that most people are involved in, but also the natural world.  The world we see is colorful and very much alive. 

This all goes away in winter.  All of a sudden, the world seems to have gone asleep.  The color leaves, the busyness dies down, and the world seems to slow.  
I love this time because it's perfect for medi…

A Question


Happy Feast of Our Lady of Guadalupe!  I have a question for all of you today.
I know that many of you, if not all, have done St. Louis de Monfort's Total Consecration to Jesus through Mary or something similar. 
I would very much like to do the Consecration but I'm finding a couple different versions and I'm not sure which one to do.
If you have done the Consecration, what version did you use and which one would you recommend?
Thank you in advance! 
In the Sacred Heart of Jesus,

It's Here // 2nd Week of Advent


The second week of Advent.
I can't remember a year or an Advent that has gone by this fast.  I feel like it should still be March 2017.  It doesn't seem real that, in fact, 2017 is at its end.
These past few days have been very strange and different.  Knowing that one of my best friends is entering Carmel, a random out-of-the-blue family situation, work, trying to make this Advent a good one, praying to know God's Holy Will and trying to be as unattached to my dreams as possible.....  Let's just say my emotions are very up-and-down right now.  
Through it all, I'm just trying to step back.  Taking that mental breath of fresh air, looking at Jesus's Face covered in blood on the Holy Cross, and looking into His Eyes that are overflowing with Infinite Pain and Infinite Love.  

It's at that moment I know everything's going to be alright.  Whatever happens is God's Will.
There are two things I love to meditate on:  the Jesus's True Presence in…


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I've thought of it often.  Does it fit into my life?  Is it promoting virtue or is it furthering vanity and/or pride?  
Yes, I'm talking about blogging.  Those who have had access to some of my other blogs have heard more about this then what they probably want to.  To those people; I'm sorry! 
I've been on the fence about it for a long time.  Actually, pretty much since I started my first one.
I enjoy having a place to write out my thoughts, but perhaps it would be better to leave my humble thoughts in the quiet of my home.  Perhaps it is best to remove myself from the web and cultivate a more virtuous life at home......a vocation quietly hidden from the prying eyes of the world, a simple resting place for my soul.  

I do love this little, humble place.  The name alone makes me smile.  May the words Gloria In Excelsis Deo be ever on my soul.  Looking back on previous years, I can clearly see how God has helped me beyond what…

Thoughts on a Thursday


Today, there are so many different things that are running through my mind.  Spirituality, holiness, work, public relations, dream of living next to a Church, school, you name it, I've probably thought of it.  

First off, if you put really strong hot-sauce on your head, will it make your hair grow faster?  Secondly, if you can dye the hair on the top of your head, can you dye the hair on your arms as well?  If it is possible, would it show?  Not that I'd do either thing, of course.  Simply wondering.  (keep in mind, I'm trying to keep myself in words exactly how I am in real-life)  Anyhow, onto the more serious things I've been thinking about.

Anyone who knows me in person knows how much I love the country.  It's beautiful, wild, and (for me) points directly towards the Creator.  I say I'll never leave and that if ever I have to live in town, I'd be miserable.  However, yesterday, as I was watching this video (Julie Goes to Mass! scroll do…

We Must Pray


Please click on the link below to access story:
Pope Declares Troubling Interpretation of AL ‘Authentic Magisterium’
Let us all pray, pray, pray for Mother Church, Our Holy Father Pope Francis, and that the whole world may realize and believe in the True Presence In The Host.
May the Sacred Heart give us the grace to remain ever faithful to Holy Mother Church and the courage to live and defend our Holy Faith.  
In the Most Sacred Heart of Jesus,

It Has Arrived!


Happy First Sunday of Advent!  
Every Advent we hear, "Let us prepare, let us prepare, let us prepare," over and over again.  For some of us, we probably don't take it truly seriously (I'm talking about those who try a few times here and there and then giving up on it, namely, myself).  
For those struggling with actually making Advent a time of serious preparation, let's make this year different.  I know we can all do it!
Here are a few ideas:
-Spend extra time in prayer every day (if it's really hard, start with only 5 minutes and work up to whatever you can fit in).
-Pick a virtue to strengthen and practice for each week of Advent. If need be, put sticky notes with the virtue written on it everywhere.  That way you won't forget!
-Our family does the Advent Angel system.  Every kids secretly gets paired with another sibling and you sneakily do good things through Advent for them.  It can be doing a quick-clean of your person's room, offering …

Thoughts on a Saturday


What a day this has been!  Very ordinary but in another sense rather out of the ordinary. One thing hasn't changed, though.  That is, my mind is still buzzing with ideas of different kinds.  Just the word 'buzzing' wears me out. 😊  Disregarding that last fact, I'll try my best in write down what's on my mind....or at least part of it.

1)  As I was driving into work (and talking to myself as I'm prone to do sometimes), I realized that even though I have all these dreams for the future, I have to be disconnected from them.  I need to disregard what I want and turn my gaze completely to seeking out God's Holy Will for every second of my life.  So I asked Our Mother of Perpetual Help, St. Therese, the holy souls in purgatory, and all the other holy saints and angels to pray to Jesus for me that I may have the grace, strength, and courage to find and follow God's Holy Will for my life.   

2)  Being excited to get all set up in my off-grid life-style…