Listening to: "When Love Was Born" by the One Voice Children's Choir. Random, I know.
What I'm doing: Eating my dinner (a bowl of tomatoes) with my favorite spoon :D Yes, I do have a favorite spoon (laugh if you want, I don't mind), and yes, my eating schedule is quite......abnormal: when I'm cooking for myself, I have my main meal of the day a little after 5am when I get up and then usually have a much lighter something or other in the afternoon and evening. There's nothing like getting up in the morning and having a bowl of Mom's homemade hearty bean soup, but I digress!
What I see: the small cabin.....dark except the warm, yellow glow of my battery-powered lamp in the far corner and the bright light of my headlamp.
What I'm thinking: about everything that has changed since starting the process of living out here full time. It's funny, all the little things that you start to notice about yourself in the quiet, all of the things you've realized you used to take advantage of, and how you are suddenly aware of different things around you that you never payed any attention to before.
For instance, I've become much more attune to my faults......and the major ones are very much annoying/troubling me, inspiring me to work even harder to overcome them. All of a sudden, I realize what all my family had to put up with 😂. I guess you would say the quiet brings a heightened sense of awareness, at least in my observation.
As for things that I've taken advantage of.......everything? Yes, pretty much. Heat, light, food, everything......it all takes more effort, time, and thought out here then it does in a regular house. Just washing dishes alone (making sure I had hauled enough water from the house, waiting for the water to boil, and then washing and drying the dishes, all the while on a very small counter) can be a challenge. Yet, I wouldn't change it for anything. It's a priceless experience.........all of a sudden, life is simpler and the most basic things thrill and delight me.
One thing that has revolutionized and rocked my world? Getting a head-lamp. Wow! I can now function at night and not have to carry anything in my hand........the difference it has made is unbelievable. Walking to and from the house in the dark (something I now very much enjoy), cooking in the evening, reading and writing after the light is gone........I can now do it all so much more comfortably. Who knew that such a simple thing could make such a happy difference? It has quickly become one of my most prized belongings and it's something I use constantly now that it gets dark around 5pm. I may look like an alien (😉), but whatever. At least I provide my family with a lot of entertainment.......
The air is getting quite cold now and it's something that is almost constantly on my mind. I'll hopefully be getting a wood-stove installed before the first major snow-fall, as I have absolutely no desire to use propane full-time. I'm very much looking forward to having the natural light and the combined heat/place to cook........it will make it seem even more like a home. In the meantime, I have to focus on gathering kindling and wood. That's my main task tomorrow (I know it's Sunday.....but it's my only day off and I'm running out of time). Winter is coming.
This life. It's amazing, it really is........all little moments, I just want to capture and remember them forever. Listening to Michael Buble sing "Home" (one of my favorites of his) while keeping myself busy tidying up everything (I usually leave for work in a flurry and thus scatter things everywhere), writing and reading by the light of my head-lamp, huddling by the heater in the morning as I see my breath in the air, sitting up in the tree-stand and listening to the animals, watching the sun set over the valley........I don't want to forget any of it.
Gloria In Excelsis Deo!