Saturday, November 10, 2018

this moment in time # 6

+JMJ+



Listening to: "When Love Was Born" by the One Voice Children's Choir.  Random, I know.  



What I'm doing:  Eating my dinner (a bowl of tomatoes) with my favorite spoon :D  Yes, I do have a favorite spoon (laugh if you want, I don't mind), and yes, my eating schedule is quite......abnormal: when I'm cooking for myself, I have my main meal of the day a little after 5am when I get up and then usually have a much lighter something or other in the afternoon and evening.  There's nothing like getting up in the morning and having a bowl of Mom's homemade hearty bean soup, but I digress!   

What I see:  the small cabin.....dark except the warm, yellow glow of my battery-powered lamp in the far corner and the bright light of my headlamp. 


What I'm thinking: about everything that has changed since starting the process of living out here full time.  It's funny, all the little things that you start to notice about yourself in the quiet, all of the things you've realized you used to take advantage of, and how you are suddenly aware of different things around you that you never payed any attention to before.   



For instance, I've become much more attune to my faults......and the major ones are very much annoying/troubling me, inspiring me to work even harder to overcome them.  All of a sudden, I realize what all my family had to put up with 😂.  I guess you would say the quiet brings a heightened sense of awareness, at least in my observation.  

As for things that I've taken advantage of.......everything?  Yes, pretty much.  Heat, light, food, everything......it all takes more effort, time, and thought out here then it does in a regular house.  Just washing dishes alone (making sure I had hauled enough water from the house, waiting for the water to boil, and then washing and drying the dishes, all the while on a very small counter) can be a challenge.  Yet, I wouldn't change it for anything.  It's a priceless experience.........all of a sudden, life is simpler and the most basic things thrill and delight me.  



One thing that has revolutionized and rocked my world?  Getting a head-lamp.  Wow!  I can now function at night and not have to carry anything in my hand........the difference it has made is unbelievable.  Walking to and from the house in the dark (something I now very much enjoy), cooking in the evening, reading and writing after the light is gone........I can now do it all so much more comfortably.  Who knew that such a simple thing could make such a happy difference?  It has quickly become one of my most prized belongings and it's something I use constantly now that it gets dark around 5pm.  I may look like an alien (😉), but whatever.  At least I provide my family with a lot of entertainment.......

The air is getting quite cold now and it's something that is almost constantly on my mind.  I'll hopefully be getting a wood-stove installed before the first major snow-fall, as I have absolutely no desire to use propane full-time.  I'm very much looking forward to having the natural light and the combined heat/place to cook........it will make it seem even more like a home.  In the meantime, I have to focus on gathering kindling and wood.  That's my main task tomorrow (I know it's Sunday.....but it's my only day off and I'm running out of time).  Winter is coming.

This life.  It's amazing, it really is........all little moments, I just want to capture and remember them forever.  Listening to Michael Buble sing "Home" (one of my favorites of his) while keeping myself busy tidying up everything (I usually leave for work in a flurry and thus scatter things everywhere), writing and reading by the light of my head-lamp, huddling by the heater in the morning as I see my breath in the air, sitting up in the tree-stand and listening to the animals, watching the sun set over the valley........I don't want to forget any of it.  

Gloria In Excelsis Deo!

Tuesday, November 6, 2018

photo-dump // a peak into summer-fall 2018

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Working nights at the small inn in town meant hours of great reading and writing time.  


The path to the cabin.  Since this picture, we've hayed and now it's all open, muddy, and brown.


 Happy to have a week back "home" up north.......definitely one of the biggest highlights of summer. 


The beauty of nature......simply stunning.    


Mid-term election night calls for pumpkin pie of course!


...........and a bit scared to glance over at the election coverage being watched over in the family room.


The last picture of the whole family that I have (taken Christmas 2017).  Methinks it's time for another.......



It's strange looking at these pictures now, as everything is now definitely the opposite of green and bushy.  








Getting this shot involved a timer, running over to the desired spot (long lens problems), vaulting over the bench, trying not to touch or step in the poison ivy growing all over the ground and up the bench, all in 10 seconds.  It was worth it and I came out unscathed :D


A caption, anyone? 


The anniversary of getting Marley calls for a comparison between when we first got her till now.  She's so big now :D




An election-night scrabble game.


Just a couple weeks ago, I was able to take some pictures of my sister and her boyfriend.  I must say, I had a lot of fun and I'm very happy with how it all turned out.





Playing at Sursum Corda back in August.


These kids 💗


Blessed to sing for a TLM wedding in October.


Youngest brother serving for daily Mass.


After church social.  Note my brother's look on his face (he's in the orange jacket on the left side) :D  

Gloria In Excelsis Deo!

Sunday, November 4, 2018

1 YEAR // ramblings on life and change

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The gentle sound of rain on the metal roof, the once empty room that smelled of sawdust, now filled with things that testify to the onlookers eyes that this is a home now.......the small pile of shoes by the door, the homemade picture frame made by younger brother with Our Mother of Perpetual Help in the center, perched on a windowsill, the shelf littered with various books, favorite pictures, the coveted thermometer (that reads 42 at the moment), random papers......the old lamp I quickly turned on after the beeping of my 5am alarm, casting a dim light around the one room and no doubt surprising any animals outside the cabin.  

The air is crisp and chilly, yet I'm perfectly content as a I huddle under blankets here on the couch, scribbling these words down in my book.  Even though it's still pitch black outside, my day has already started.  I savor this morning......it being the first one where I haven't had to run anywhere before the light comes up :)  



Welcome to my quiet world.

Life is wonderful how it's always changing......people coming and going, new perspectives and ideas always coming to mind and changing the way you understand and perceive things.  As you grow older and experience your personal trials, victories, sufferings, and joys......you change, regardless if you want to or not.



If you had told me 2 years ago, that a handful of months before I turned 20, I'd be working a 100+ room hotel down in the then-dreaded big city, sometimes solo, while spending hours on the phone and computer managing the shuttles, going back and forth with drivers trying to work out a good schedule each day, taking reservations, solving people's problems, and yes, dealing with the occasional angry guest.......I think I would have probably died right then and there (at least figuratively speaking 😉).  

If you had told me 10 years ago that, just a handful of months before my 20th birthday, I'd finally be starting the process of living full time out in a one-room cabin, I would have probably been speechless with joy, though perhaps a bit disbelieving ;)   

And yet, here I am, enjoying the responsibility immensely (especially loving my solo days!), and thanking God for such a great gift.  The transformation is almost unreal.  How I've changed.......my personality, my thoughts and ideas, how I perceive events and the actions of others.......even as I look back on now one full year of blogging here, I can see how and where my ideas and thought process has changed/developed.  And yes, I'll admit to being a tad embarrassed looking back sometimes 😉.



To summarize this part of my rambling: Our Heavenly Father is infinitely good to us all.......His mercy and justice (especially the justice) are both something to marvel at.

Hmmm.......the rain is still coming down steadily.  This will make my run back to the main house to type this in quite interesting :)  Being out were I am now, it's funny how your perspective on nature and wildlife changes.  At least for me, I've gone from being apprehensive about the dark and the various wildlife (especially when you combine the two) to simply just being curious and taking any chance I can get to observe them without them noticing my presence.  



And now (to change the subject dramatically in true Emma-style), since it is my one year anniversary of writing here on Gloria In Excelsis Deo, I figured I'd do another "Ask Me Anything" post/thing/whatever-you-call-it.  Please leave any questions you have in the comments and I'll be sure and answer them before the month is out (though perhaps later then sooner).  Don't be afraid to ask whatever comes to mind ;)  

Most of all, I want to extend a very heartfelt thank you to all who read and comment.  You all are truly, truly wonderful and you don't know how much I enjoy reading your thoughts......your words mean everything to me and I always am grateful for your additional perspectives on all of the different posts.  May God bless each and every one of you.



Gloria in excelsis Deo!

Humbly yours,

Emma

Friday, October 19, 2018

eternal rest grant unto her......

+JMJ+


St. Therese, ora pro nobis

Oh Mother Immaculate, ora pro nobis!

Most Sacred Heart of Jesus, have mercy on us!

Eternal rest grant unto them, O Lord, and may Your Perpetual Light shine upon them.  
May her soul and all the souls of the faithful departed, through the mercy of God, rest in peace.
Amen.